What My Recovery Looks Like Today


First you should know some of how it started. I was 17 and began experimenting with drugs/alcohol. That sent me to a whole new stratosphere but it was an unhealthy one. I got in lots of trouble of all kinds as you can imagine but I have to admit it is all a blur. in 2007 I was diagnosed with: Bipolar 1, BPD Borderline Personality Disorder, Anxiety, ADHD Attention Deficit Disorder, Dyslexia and mild PTSD Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Did nothing about it. Fast forward to my 37th birthday I found myself in a deep black hole, literally. My only way out was Recovery.

That journey began February 13, 2017. I began a 12 step program and a regime of 4 pharmaceuticals (which I still apply to this day). Sure at first I was unsure that Recovery would work for me but I was sick and tired of being sick and tired so I kept going and figured I’d continue something new. The month to month milestones turned into year to year and I was loving the clarity and success; Spiritual, Mental, Emotional, Psychological and even Physical.

Today I am Happy, Joyous and Free. Though I must continually, daily, minute to minute guard myself from going back to that place of “running away” from reality or from my feelings. Meditation and Prayer help keep me balance and grounded, so does a network system of support after all it take a tribe…

4 thoughts on “What My Recovery Looks Like Today

  1. Stuart Danker – Malaysia – A Malaysian-based writer who's been in the no-niche niche for nine years. His debut novel is set to be published in April 2021. www.stuartdanker.com
    Stuart Danker says:

    Thanks for sharing your story. It must be hard to talk about such personal things. Just thought I’d drop you a message of encouragement, and I too totally get that minute-to-minute battle. Wishing you all the best with your journey!

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